Colors drip like raindrops

Casting shadows of thoughts

Intertwined like branches of the mind

Scratching traces of implications

Surrounding statements of vindication

Upon walls like symphonies–

Unorchestrated

Left as strings of sounds unheard

Specks of light and celebration

Shattered and reflected education

Mismanaged and regurgitated

Like blurred lines upon paper,

Soggy with the drops of raining colors

Melting into reflections we never were

Threading and constructing

Thoughts we never had

On walls of symphonies unrelenting

Mimicking our suffering cries

Flooding over with determination

To express that we cannot fathom

Our very selves etched like figures

In clay softer than our tongues

Replies that never were

And never will be

Without our hands,

Our voices,

And our wrongs. 

It was the dead of winter and

In the quiet of the night we said “Hello.”

I’ve spent ten years writing words,

Streaks of everlasting color

Tracing fingers on the walls I’ve built within.

Well it’s been Hell and I’ve no others to begin.

So, keep my windows shut,

For the breeze is blowing in

And I cannot begin

To tell the others of Hell that is Alone.

Streaks of everlasting color

Dried and cracked and sprained from within.

Walls of fingers tracing passages untouched

Ten years of words built up and lost

In the quiet night we said “Hello.”

Simple words in the dead of winter,

Snow falling at our passing

Melting away with the days we once had.

Nations form in words unsaid

And desires left unspoken.

Cities lie on continents

Of unexpressed regret.

Valleys of content rest

Between mountains of indecision.

Yet words cannot be weaved

Of thoughts left unstrung,

Out of tune and abandoned.

Rusted notes tasting of copper

Leaving shrill steaks of orange.

Postage unpaid

In a world of instant messaging,

Words too weighty

For such a delicate soul.

Yet, there is strength in the eyes

A quiet, understanding whisper

Buried in the corners of your lips…

Thoughts unspoken,

Words constructed and deconstructed

In the edifice that you are.

She is my breath.

I cannot breathe without her

Yet, suffocating I dream.

She is a puzzle

I cannot piece together;

Incongruent lines shape her soul.

She is a flood

All consuming and exhausting,

Yet I would gladly die in her depths.

She is a song

That I could never sing,

But never could leave unsung.

Her laughter is a waterfall

Her words are like rain

Her smile an oasis in my pain.

Yet, I am foolish,

For all this is of not.

For she is a painting

And I a stranger

Puzzled by the flood of breath I’ve lost.

Her hair falls like the rain

Organized in chaotic beauty,

Shades of lavender

Curled around my crimson heart.

Her voice is shadowed footprints

Softly sinking into my soul,

Marking a trail

Through my emerald forest. 

Her eyes are pools of radiance

Piercing the cold barricades,

Shattering the sentries

That held my sapphire whispers.

Her hands are ivory

Spotted with speckles

Like stars that dot my horizon,

Shining like ruby silhouettes.

Together we are falling,

Streaking across the sky

In trails of ecstasy,

Showering our love

Like droplets in a hurricane. 

In what is strength defined?

Is it in the power of a punch,

The technique and flow?

Is it how many one can take,

Before collapsing in the snow?

Is it in the weights you can lift,

A display of pure mass?

Is it carrying the weight on your shoulders

From the days gone passed?

Is it how well you hold your drink,

At your favorite bar?

Is it taking hits meant for mother

When daddy’s gone too far?

Is it in crying for help

When others stand by silent?

Is it keeping a secret

When others suspect the violence?

Is it in moving on

Leaving it all behind?

Is it staying to try to piece the pieces

Faulty parents could not find?

Is it trying yourself to succeed

Where all before have lost?

Is it sparing the world your generation,

No matter what the cost?

For strength defined is mystery,

Wrapped in brittle skin.

Is true strength found in outward actions

Or simply kept within?

Beauty carved in face of marble

Traces elegant ivory curves

Scent of a bed of honey

Spun silk through my nerves.

Fires in her milky eyes

Fueled by malintent

Hours spent in suffocation

From the seconds spent.

Nails that dig into my back

And linger for days gone past

Bites that mark her gentle grasp

And fade when they should last.

Her taste that fills my open mouth

And trickles down my chin

The hunger that ceases not

That rises from within.

The hands that hold

My simple heart

Her lips that whisper still

The words which tear us apart

And yet give me my fill.

I’ve said best friend too oft

A phrase given of drifters,

Bright lights that quickly faded.

Cast aside, yet ne’er forgotten

She waited by my side,

Always there to put me first.

She helped me see my foolishness,

My stubborn drunken pride,

Born of sleeplessness, not wine.

She stands here still

While others care to part

Shifting seasons, remorse and farewell.

A monument to friendship

Dedication divine,

Yet comfortable and sweet.

Now she brings a child forth,

A light within her womb

A candle to the darkened sky.

A touch of poverty and sorrow

Rest upon your head

Yet nary a tear spoils your heart.

Kindness weaved like crocheted love,

Threads of silken charity

Intermingled with latent shine.

Clothe the world with thy wisdom,

As you once clothed my neck

With the warmth of a scarf.

Her words were foreign

Drenched in eloquence befitting a queen.

Her lips, soft as silk

Moved provocatively in rhythm,

Pale red flowers opening,

Covered in dew.

Her hands were treasonous,

Treachery deep as canyon passes,

Leading me to sin

As an accomplice to her shame.

Her eyes, darkened earth

Penetrate my hardened heart

And fertile shoots entangle such.

Her hair, my hangman’s noose

A hammock for all my thoughts

A final rest. 

She was my pebble,

Fruity and as colorful

As a rainbow smile.