Tightly held pillow

Memories fading slowly

But no hug returned.

It is time for a longer verse

As the clouds in my mind get worse

Waiting for the rain to disperse

While saddled with a curse

Rhymes like this always seemed funny

Words laced with honey

With the grace of eggs, runny

Trying to make a sad song, sunny

It’s a joke, a disgrace

To assume a pace

Too quickly for a race

Too fragile a base

For a masterpiece takes love

Each stroke a mourning dove

A wake up call from above

To love…

To accept the challenges met

And those we haven’t, yet

To embrace the changes

Because they come

Ready or not, they’re here.

It’s nothing to fear, they said

As we looked unbelieving

Incapable of conceiving,

Of believing who we are…

Really

Not the clothes or the status

They say nothing about us

Truly.

For even the lowliest scum

Or flea-bitten bum can dream.

I’m sorry I’m quiet,

I just don’t know what to say.

It is harder now.

I know of the pain,

Recommending that we stop,

Set sail and change ports.

My sentences fall as

Insecurities censure

Every waking thought.

We are closing up,

Cementing our chosen ways.

Finding peace in ours.

Fulifilling our needs

For once, reaching to lift us,

Higher than before.

We are not your rocks,

Stepping stones to a future

We are vacant from.

No, we choose to speak.

We state in our eloquence,

We are so much more.

For we know too well,

Silence is surrendering.

Our free will is ours.

Every light is red

Except when you need one

Throwing off my groove.

Now is the right time,

Reach up, reach out, keep growing.

We both know you can.

A beautiful voice

Is a very precious gift

Only one of yours.

It’s time to grow up,

leave the past behind,

No longer a child.

Burn every letter.

Throw away every text.

Start over, for real.

I’m done reacting,

Through weighing and measuring

Each and every word.

I’m finished wrestling

Trying to reach your closed heart

With my empty touch.

I’m over struggling,

Guessing what you are thinking

Hoping my words help.

I’m done testing out,

Passing each request in full,

Yet no agreement.

I’m no longer bound,

Held by vacant loyalty,

Meaningless to you.

Yes, this is goodbye.

No, I care no more to try.

Done, for good, this time.

Sometimes I just write.

No underlying message,

Just simple release.