Sometimes apathy
Is all I have to offer
Once you’ve drained me so.
Sometimes apathy
Is all I have to offer
Once you’ve drained me so.
Breathe
Quiet the words that arise
Strike the record
Wring out in puddles
Ring out in silence
Echoing drops like rain
Reigning like pretender kings
Kinks and knots tying down
Restraining and retraining the mob
Crowding out the voices that sing
Singling out only those that agree
A greed unwelcome but accepted
Excepted from a list of sins
Not seen as wrongs
Against the unarmed
Unharmed by mere sentences
Sentenced to life in ignorance
Ignored by masses
Amassed in Mass
Masterfully worshiping reflections
Reflecting not
Seeing image without form
Unstructured observance
From without, not within
Withered stances
Decaying in the wind.
When I let you in you’ll linger
Even though the years pass by
I’ll try to burn you out
Leaving impressions instead
Ashes and dust
Where once were flames.
One day I might trust
Enough to say everything
And cease to censor.
Do not expect your sly smiles
Gentle sighs
And angled acts will speak more clearly
Than words set down without prejudice
Intentions represented as fact
For the things that matter.
Set foundations in your sentences
Stick to them
Construct on them your actions.
Do not expect a heavy look
Or staring at the dishes
To get anything done.
Passive-aggression is so overdone
And even when we know
We’ll refuse to understand,
On principle.
Use your words
Spiteful, Angry, Loving, Affectionate
Biting, Uplifting, Frustrated, Depressed
Uninterested, Excited, Lonely, Lost.
Speak to me
To Him
To Her
To Xem.
Speak Up
Speak Out!
Shout, if you have to
But be sensitive as well.
Use your words
Resign yourself not to silent acceptance
Of mediocrity unfit.
Sleep, as each hour crawls
Fighting back to promises of life
Tangled in breaths not taken.
Struggle against the warm sheets of silence
Filled in with spaces unmeasured
Unmarked with remarkable left undone.
Sigh deeply with words unspoken
Drawn from lines and depths unplumbed
Scrapped together quickly in guilt.
Awaken in frustrated surrender,
Unable to accept
Having not…
Sleep invades the restless mind
As nimbly as a whisper
The shadow of its presence creeps,
Its weight so like a dream
Feel the heavy strings pull downward
Sliding down the chair I try
Fighting back against a silence
I can never seem to crush.
Each hour passing by in hazes
While fog within my mind consumes
Crawls within my veins and teases
A promise of hours’ rest.
So I rise to take my leave
Of mortal coils and concrete life
To slip into a stream
Yet find myself awakened
And sleep has flown again.
Our worst enemy is ourselves
For after the voices of hate
Which follow us from birth
Are silent in the night
The echoes of their beliefs
Still resonate in our ears.
One could argue then
That memories are the foe
But that is not so,
For it is that fact that we’ve digested
And have accepted the suggested
Falling prey to the suppositions
And to the dispositions
Of those that mocked and teased.
But it is only when we’ve labeled
Those laboured breaths as true
That they can truly haunt us.
Though true it is that they still hurt,
To know some feel such ways
Especially those close enough
To claim to know and understand you,
You are not your flaws
Not your spotted complexion
Nor your fragile, broken composition.
Made of from which worlds bloom
Even broken and dying you give life
Are empowered to touch and change
Capable of creating for yourself
A world worth living in.
Hollowness devours me
Silence eating words before breaths
Can even be drawn, like drafts and
Mere sketches of sentences
Traced in air no longer viable.
The pain is not excruciating, but empty
Like destitute dwellings underneath my
Skin craving for inhabitants gentle
Or wicked without shame.
Yet even these cannot fill and I am
Suffocating on the lack of devastation
Noticeable, categorised and almost
Neat.
“Pain deserves to be felt,”
As nerve endings send signals
Informing our minds of the outside
World intercepting our misconceptions
With stark revelations dispelling hazed
Recollections of how things were.
The past caught up in our distortion
Of present situations provoking
Hesitation and flight toward futures
We’ll probably forget.
The sharp and dull prick of instigation
Oxygenation of our blood
Floating like stills dripping solution
Developing the conditions of our
Hearts overexposed and overdosed
Collapsing and contracting
Like leaves on a dry autumn day.