Lazy Afternoon

With my lips on your spine,

I count down the days left.

Each vertebra is a week,

And we’re reaching a middle.

Your back arches inward;

I’ve hit a ticklish spot.

I rest my head there,

Lazily writing love with my fingers.

I can feel your smile,

Radiating in the warmth.

We are content,

In this lazy afternoon.

We are home,

And not a moment too soon.

I wrap my arms around you,

Gently assuring you deserve goodness.

Kindness is less alien now,

But you’re still acclimating.

Your spine is a timeline,

Each vertebra a moment you were broken.

You’ve pieced peace together,

Often haphazardly over the years.

But now it’s becoming clearer

And in your heart you can believe.

A dream awaits on a distant shore,

And all you have to do is fly.

Love & Lust

The difference between love and lust

Lies in lack of faith and trust;

The sensual grasp of empty threads

Dyed in black and deepest reds.

The smell of sweat and fire lingers

Curled between blackened fingers

That trace the curves of your lips

And find rest between your hips.

Lust clenches tightly for fleeing gazes,

Heartless bruising, and empty phrases.

Love holds on gently and calmly sings–

Places value more on time, than things.

Lust craves endless attention

And pays in lack of intimate retention.

Love patiently waits, and nurtures growth–

Holds to loyalty’s promise, a sacred oath.

Lust flees from troubled water,

Preferring to coast as an entitled yachter.

Love abides the stormy years;

A ship made stronger against all fears.

And now all is a whisper…

Not the roar of yesteryear,

Of tides pulling heartstrings like bubblegum

Half-chewed,

Forgotten memories

Stuck underneath a table for two,

Hardened,

Flavorless,

And used. 

Peaceful Protest

I cannot protest your lips

Too soft to touch

Too rough in speech to stay my hand.

I cannot protest your eyes

Too bright for evening stars

Too dark for midday prayers.

I cannot protest your fingers

Too empty to feel my wounds

Too full to fill my heart.

I cannot protest your mind

Too vast to travel this life

Too enclosed to stray at all.

I cannot protest your heart

Too joyful for the rich

Too mournful for the common man.

I cannot protest your tongue

Too lithe to control

Too clumsy now to teach.

I cannot protest your arms

Too tight to hold me dear

Too loose to let me free. 

I cannot protest

I may not even try

I cannot protest

Until the day I die. 

Sifting Thoughts

I.

I swallow apologies like sand,

Because without the weight of change

They’ll float away in the wind,

Regardless of intent.

II. 

I fill my lungs with mud

Trying to inhale peace,

Struggling to breathe

While words dribble down my chin.

III.

I sit in silence as a stone

Layered with years of regret

Culminating in several moments of muffled speech

I am awake, but I am not yet.

Ransomed Heart

Was it a trick of the light

When I saw a reflection of my skin

Threads interwoven, pulled thin

Faded orange and green

With starlight dimmed in freckled eyes

And tear stained pillows

Disguised

As something in-between?

A mirror hanging loose

Attracts your fading lips

Takes a breath

And sighs into your hips,

As walls marked with fingerprints

Of yellow, blue and white

Trickle into shadow

And fade from sight.

A whispered windowed pane of glass

Fractures into snow

And falls through its home

Into a dream below,

Settled sleep measured out

And dropped soft like a kiss.

Hesitation

Gods alive, I am terrified

But the fire in your eyes tells me otherwise

There is warmth there

And the midnight chills are creeping in.

The door hesitates,

Hinges half-frozen like a suggestion,

A possibility in between cracks

And the promise of light.

I see it seeping underneath,

Caressing the floor with its presence

Tip toeing ever so gently

Between the carpet and frame.

You hide behind a fortress of silence

And surround yourself with words,

With wishes of other worlds

And a life that’s more your own.

You ache for something more

And your finger, tracing racing thoughts,

Tries in vain to find their source

Before the glow can fade.

The door yields slightly,

And I hear a soft singing within my bones,

It resonates through my skin

And settles on my lips.

I whisper gently, the words I know,

And slip them underneath.

They pile up slowly

I hope they keep you company.

Eradicated Musings

I still beam at the thought of you

Lungs billowing at a breath of you

Drawing you in till you dawn on my eyes

My lips ache for skin never touched

Teeth pulling at a mere echo of your name

Scraping by tastes lost in adaptation

Your words lie curled in my stomach

Whispered truths and a half awake smile

Spreading warmth and turmoil in my soul

Your eyes plead for innocence

Yet all you’ve known is distrust

And loyalty was my only offer

I cannot speak of you again.

No More Rest

She cradled me in her arms

Like a wounded sheep wandering

With nothing but fear

Eternally etched in wide, still eyes

Shock and awe frostbitten by time

Decay like dark spots nibbling

Reflecting headlights off asphalt

Stretched like screams in the night.

In between her breaths I fall apart

As footsteps fade from summer’s scent

And cease to echo in gravel

Pointed with delayed intentions.

Broken promises pile up like rocks

Disjointed and ejected from their homes

A landslide before our destination

Leaving her to carry on, alone.